I’ve been back in Wales for over seven months now and I’m stuck.
Not stuck over where to go or what to do but stuck with this blog. I get so many ideas over what to write about every day but never feel as though I can write.
I know I’ve been neglecting the blog a lot lately. There hasn’t been much of a steady flow of posts and, the longer I leave it, the more I feel I can’t go back and start writing again.
I remember experiencing something similar in university for my Romantics module. I missed weeks and weeks of lectures. Those weeks turned into months and, while a big part of me knew I should start going again, a small voice would whisper ‘You can’t go back now. It’s been too long. No-one will remember you. And the teacher will ask where you’ve been.’ Yeah, that’s kind of how I’ve felt about this blog.
I love being surrounded by my friends and family but, in all honesty, I haven’t felt that inspired to get writing about living back here. Living here not only brings my self-esteem down but there are genuinely a lot of everyday things that piss me off – politics, attitudes, lack of money, being away from the majority of my best friends – and the last thing I want to do is turn this blog into a whinefest. (Isn’t that what tumblr’s for?)
But, at the same time, I realise that seven months of my life has gone by and I genuinely don’t know what I’ve been doing during that time. Blogging about the pretty amazing moments of my life have always kept memories alive for me. Reading back is like looking at an old diary that reawakens feelings and thoughts I had during those times. Without it, I get lost and, before I know it, months disappear from my mind and a big chunk of my life is gone.
So, after seeing how amazing Kirsten from First for Everything has been, managing to blog every day for NaBloPoMo, I figured I could at least try to do the same and push myself to blog a little more regularly, even if it’s about the mundane little things rather than the grand ol’ adventures.
So, to start things off with a (hopefully) more regular posting schedule (I’m laughing because this is probably the last post you’ll read from me for a year), here are some of the absolute highlights of the last seven months: