Reading Update from On the Road

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It’s been almost two weeks since I left my job, packed up my life, and left Singapore. Up until now, my reading had taken a bit of a nose dive. Every time I sat down with a good book, my mind would be all over the place. Needless to say, Feminist Lit February was a complete fail.

Now that I’m “on the road” (I hate that phrase but, as I’m currently homeless, jobless, and carrying everything I own in three bags around the world with me, I guess it’s pretty fitting) though, I’ve started to relax and am finally getting to dive into the books I’ve brought along with me.

And, as I haven’t written about my reading habits for a few months, I thought I’d take this opportunity, on this very lazy Sunday, to write about everything I’ve been neglecting.

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What’s Up Wednesday: Back to Blogging, Mexico, & Thinking of the Future

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I haven’t blogged properly for 3 months but now I’m back.

I’m trying to think of an update for these last few ‘summer’ months but am struggling. I really haven’t done a lot other than work. Back in July, I flew up to Vietnam to visit an old friend from Korea for a few days. But, apart from that, life has been pretty low key on this island.

Earlier this month I had a lovely week off from work. I thought about going on holiday somewhere nearby – Bali, Penang, Thailand, Philippines. But in the end I decided to stay here and enjoy a bunch of lie-ins, cafe visits, cinema trips, and long walks. It was something I really needed and I felt so refreshed after.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about what to do next year. My work contract is up at the end of March and I have to make a choice over whether to stay or move on. I think I’ve already made my choice but there are always a ton of things to consider for each option.

I wish I could be more specific but, right now, I’ll just have to remain annoyingly vague.

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What’s Up Wednesday: New York, Weddings, & Lying Low

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What’s new?

I suck at blogging.

This What’s Up Wednesday thing was supposed to put me on a schedule so that I could start blogging regularly again. And then I missed a month worth of Wednesdays. Fail.

But I’m back. I imagine this is because I’ve just spent the last two days at home, lounging about in my PJs, trying to get over the last of my jetlag, so I finally have free time to just blabber on.

The biggest thing that happened in the last few weeks is that I flew to New York for my girl, Cerena’s, wedding.

I haven’t seen the professional pictures yet and I, stupidly, didn’t bother to take any photos throughout the day because I was too busy sobbing and then drinking and then dancing but I managed to snag one that the happy couple was tagged in on Facebook:

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What’s Up Wednesday: Vesak Day, Theatre, & Awkwardness

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Happy Vesak Day!

Singapore is enjoying this midweek public holiday and flocking to their nearest temple to take part in celebrations. I have yet to shower and get dressed so … you know … priorities.

I completely missed writing a WUW last week thanks to my utter laziness. I woke up late and then spent the rest of the afternoon getting ready to go out for the evening. But this wasn’t any normal going out.

I’d treated myself to theatre tickets.

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One Year Later & a Return to Blogging

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It’s been a year.

A whole year since I packed my bags, left Korea, and moved to Singapore.

The last time I properly blogged, I was 3 days in to my new life. I was living in a hotel in the red light district, getting adjusted to the heat and new atmosphere, preparing myself for a new job, hoping & praying that this move would heal my depression, and that I’d eventually find some happiness.

Thirteen months have passed and I’m here to tell you that Singapore has been good to me. Living has been easy and kind to my mind. I feel like me again and I’m enjoying everything I surround myself with.

I love the feel of the sun on my skin every day. I love the ease with which I can get around on this island. I love the sounds of the Singlish ‘lah’, ‘lor’, ‘ah’, and ‘leh’ that roll off the tongues of my neighbours and colleagues. I love that I’ve discovered how good I am at working with children and that it drives me to work hard and give it my all.

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The End of a Generically Awful Year & Some Awfully Generic Resolutions

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Well, here we are.

2014 is coming to a close and, if I’m honest, I’m happy to see the back of it. This year hasn’t been the best for me and, for the first time, I’m going to let you in on why this blog came to a bit of a standstill in the last 9 months.

If you’ve read my previous posts, you know that I lost my writing mojo. Any idea I’d had for a piece of writing was quickly dismissed by that stupid dark cloud I let follow me around for the majority of the year.

Yup, ladies and gents. I don’t mind saying now that I may have been suffering from a touch of depression.

Crying fits; Waves of constant exhaustion; Dread at leaving my apartment; Irritableness; Complete lack of interest in anything; More crying fits.

It hasn’t been pretty.

I don’t really know what brought it all on but I do know that it can’t have been helped by a few factors: The mountain of bad personal events that happened within the first few months of my arrival; Getting physically ill for most of the summer; Gaining a lot of weight; And experiencing quite a bit of extreme culture shock.

And the worst thing was that I was scared to tell anyone the truth. I didn’t want to admit defeat and that I could feel myself spiraling back into the depressive state from 8 years ago. Not after finally growing up to become a confident, self-assured adult who was ready to take on the world.

Every foreign teacher I met here was having the time of their life; Korea was the bees’ knees for them. Friends from back home would write me about how brave I was and that they wished they could go off and do something like this.

But, for me, it was like the clichéd nightmare I couldn’t wake up from. Dramatic, eh?

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Doing Time in the Green, Green Grass of Home

newmebeachI’ve been back in Wales for over seven months now and I’m stuck.

Not stuck over where to go or what to do but stuck with this blog. I get so many ideas over what to write about every day but never feel as though I can write.

I know I’ve been neglecting the blog a lot lately. There hasn’t been much of a steady flow of posts and, the longer I leave it, the more I feel I can’t go back and start writing again.

I remember experiencing something similar in university for my Romantics module. I missed weeks and weeks of lectures. Those weeks turned into months and, while a big part of me knew I should start going again, a small voice would whisper ‘You can’t go back now. It’s been too long. No-one will remember you. And the teacher will ask where you’ve been.’ Yeah, that’s kind of how I’ve felt about this blog.

I love being surrounded by my friends and family but, in all honesty, I haven’t felt that inspired to get writing about living back here. Living here not only brings my self-esteem down but there are genuinely a lot of everyday things that piss me off – politics, attitudes, lack of money, being away from the majority of my best friends – and the last thing I want to do is turn this blog into a whinefest. (Isn’t that what tumblr’s for?)

riverBut, at the same time, I realise that seven months of my life has gone by and I genuinely don’t know what I’ve been doing during that time. Blogging about the pretty amazing moments of my life have always kept memories alive for me. Reading back is like looking at an old diary that reawakens feelings and thoughts I had during those times. Without it, I get lost and, before I know it, months disappear from my mind and a big chunk of my life is gone.

So, after seeing how amazing Kirsten from First for Everything has been, managing to blog every day for NaBloPoMo, I figured I could at least try to do the same and push myself to blog a little more regularly, even if it’s about the mundane little things rather than the grand ol’ adventures.

So, to start things off with a (hopefully) more regular posting schedule (I’m laughing because this is probably the last post you’ll read from me for a year), here are some of the absolute highlights of the last seven months:

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